whelp look who failed to regularly update this time 4 attempt nummer zwei!
xmpp thing in May was so enjoyable and fulfilling it's so cool to actually meet non-braindead computer people but my goodness i was STEM-burnt out after that...programming hyperfocus drainout is real. do not program->sleep->program non-stop for like 2 months lmao.
unfort i've not really touched the project since both cause i applied for an nlnet grant (!!!) and there has been a necessity for recharge and getting my life sorted. nlnet will only get back 2 me in september so that kind of gave me an excuse to step back. esp cause hopefully i will be moving to berlin. if there is a single person who reads this and you also happen to live there contact me!! this year is turning out to be a positively pivotal year for my personal life just out of nowhere. super ready to move on from GRIEF ffs.
i've also been just working on other cute projects and investing in humanities stuff. i published one new blogpost in each new month and i'm so glad 4 that <3 gonna try 2 keep up the frequency. also. books, culture, and more writing. published some new poetry and i wrote the living document that is the lovely.computer manifesto. memorised/mastered(sorta) several new pieces on the piano (i really gotta record these and put them up on bimbo.video at some point).
i didn't realise how culturally starved i was and it was not doing numbers for my mental health. the thing i'm most hyped for in moving to a new city is that i will be able to attend so many classical music concerts and galleries again. i have found myself missing the metropolitanism of london for the first time in a while following this realisation, to the point where i almost fell in love with the city again,,,if you're in london check out the poetry library in the southbank centre,,,however, i eventually found myself at a pub in the City of London. very close call. it's a shame how enshittified and appropriated every major city is right now.
in terms of reading, my mission to detach from the dominant zeitgeist has progressed. i am now an ultra-cringe paper journalism reader. i've been enjoying the anarchist review of books, london review of books, and the approach (digital because i am not in the U.S.....). reading newspapers in public seems so performative but i both don't care and it's wonderful to make the most of my time as a free agent by going to parks and spending entire days reading in the grass, particularly in summer. reading this kind of print media is so interesting because it's both still kind of clued in, yet contains a lot of text totally unrelated to dominant discourse. like i get to read world history, golf, and random poems by poets i haven't heard of before.
sadly (?) it is really still totally impossible to detach. like i still know about the nothingburger that is sydney sweeney jeans. but also, i'm probably missing a lot of the garbage and i'm so glad about that. i didn't know about pirate software until a friend tried to explain it to me yesterday, and that was cool. i was glad that i didn't know and i didn't want to know or need to know.
anyways not me writing a public diary entry i just need to come up with excuses for me not touching the code....i'm so sorry...and some kind of push for me to get back on track. this week i WILL actually debug the macaw database refactor, and hopefully get a bunch of other stuff on the kanban done.
done:
- macaw kind of works
- blogposts
- a lot of reading
- poetry things
next:
- macaw database refactor
- actually polish and release the fucking alpha ?
- secret slow social media forum project?
- more writing :>
- it would be cute to fix up my site code/styling a lil, re-add the microblog to the front-page, maybe iframe the finger text too.
music area
- private parts - robert ashley
- electric counterpoint, violin phase - steve reich
- prelude, chorale et fugue - franck
- music for nine post cards, flora - 吉村弘
- ヘヴンリィ・パンク：アダージョ - 七尾旅人